It’s new year again tomorrow. Time is passing so fast. Have you thought of any new year resolution??? I’m still thinking about it.

Have you ever had the whole plane waiting for you before?
Have you ever sprint to the boarding gate in Changi airport terminal before?
Have you ever had a cab accident at HK Central before?
Have you ever went to The Peak at almost midnight and have rained on you before?
Have you ever got held twice in a week at the checkpoint and still grabbing candies at the counter before?

I had all these the past week. Very exciting experience I must say.

I’ll post more about the HongKong trip next time when I don’t feel so tired. Probably when I’m home in Malaysia next few days.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

I've been staring at the screen for minutes now and don't know what to type.

I've just realised that many things are not really as important as what I think. Hmmm... Don't know why, suddenly I have this weird feeling. Sort of calm and partly anxious.

I'm going off to HongKong tomorrow. So excited!! But will I be able to last the four games in four days? We'll find out.

Did some shopping and have movie with Weide today. Tired. Body is still aching from training last night. Result of two weeks not exercising.

On the way back to Singapore now. Looking at the high way on the front window, the driver is driving and also enjoying his ‘KuaChi’. I think will reach Singapore around five.

Was at Klang the pass two days for my Poly friend’s wedding. It has been five odd years since graduation. He’s now a Business Director, drive a Toyota Camry, had just moved into his newly renovated home, and flying off to Korea for honeymoon today.

I stayed at my Poly best friend’s home in Klang for the two days. He is also has something, owning two apartment houses on rental for some side income. Together with us was my best basketball kaki in Poly. He’s now working in Penang as a Process Engineer and also had just bought a house at Penang.

This makes me think a lot about my life. I got to do something for my own future. I know I won’t settle for any office jobs after so many past ones. I want to start some sort of business but had no direction and idea of how to run it. I’m also missing the critical part of business, I got no capital to start with. What to do??? Looks like I only have one option. To continue what I do and look for chances I can get hold of.

Anyway, I should be cool. Throw away those worries and enjoy what’s coming isn’t it? I’m flying off to HongKong on Wednesday. Spending the Christmas season there with my Club, and playing some netball. I’m full of anticipation for it now. YooHoo!!!

Tonight is the last night I'm spending at home. Going Klang for my friend's wedding tomorrow and going back Singapore on Monday. Here's some sceneries from my hometown. Padi fields of Kedah.

This little man is Samuel. He is fifteen months old. Now learning to walk and talk. He never fails to keep me busy at home. Isn’t he cute? Giving me a high five.

I’m having really weird dreams these few days at home. Odd… I don’t usually have dreams. Is it a reflection of what I did during the day? I was pretty bored at home lately. Watching tv all day. Doing only little helping out my brother and dad. Not that there are lots to do at all. I really wish I can do more. Yup! I’ll be able to help out more next few days. We’ll be going JB to install projects my dad was working on. After that, to Batu Pahat for another two. We’ve just load the stuffs on the truck going to JB today. We’ll be going tomorrow morning for the installation. I’m looking forward to it.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately. On the things I did this year, and also on things I should have done. There are so much that I should do actually. So so lot. I ask myself why? Why didn’t I do them? Things would have been much better isn’t it? I guess everyone have their own regrets in life. On things we’ve done, and also on things we’ve not done. A question I ask again. Is it better to regret on something I did wrong, or better to regret on something I didn’t do??? Hahaha… I guess it’s best not having both.

I’m thinking too much again. Think and without any answers and directions. I really hope that I can find answers.

Peoples around me are getting married recently. My brother had his wedding last month. My Poly friend invited me to his next week. It’s really setting pressure on me. Peoples had been asking me ‘when is yours?’ during my brother’s wedding. I gave them a smile for the question. It’s a question I desperately want to know the answer too. But no one knows isn’t it… If you know, let me know ok.

Ouch!!! My knees and ankles are still aching from Thursday's game.

I'm going home tomorrow. Do I look forward to it? Not really. But I do hope that I can use the time at home productively.

Wow! It's December already. Time is really passing fast and it's the end of another year. What have I done this year? Let's think about it on the next few days.

I hate it when I miss my shots. Only 71% today. Ahhrrr...

Should have got myself more ready to take the court. My movement in the circle sucks. How can I get nearer to the pole?

Overall performance on the game wasn't impresive. Many errors on foot work and miss passes. Anyway, it was fun playing. Worth the pain and aches I'm having now.

I threw my whistle on the ground while umpiring today. I guess everyone was shocked. It was a very messy game, bad conditions, I'm the only umpire doing the whole court, no one know how to play, and everyone is so aggresive. It's a game I would give money not to umpire actually. Tough!!! Anyway, it's history. I'm taking a break from umpiring in December. Finally...

Coaching this morning was great. Although didn't really complete what I've planed for them for today's training. The girls did quite ok on what I've thought them. I played in the court game for the end of training. Quite fun playing together with the sec ones. We beat the seniours. I have more hope on them for next year's zonal then the seniours. JiaYou!!!

Played in a small modified netball competition yesterday. It was great having fun and being able to be with friends on a sunday. We were champion. Beat everyone else pretty easily due to our height advantage. Anyway, the competition wasn't really important, I love the company more.

Start of a new week today. I have umpiring assignments lined up almost everyday again. Will I get bored of umpiring one day???

I have been thinking about what in my previous post. Guess I should blame myself instead of my players. As their coach, I should have prepared them better. Prepare them physically and mentally instead of just technically. I'm sorry girls... JiaYou!!! I won't give up. Please train yourselves during my absence in December.

Today proves that I’m a super lousy coach.

My girls had a friendly this morning and they were slaughtered. What can I do? Is it the way I train them are wrong? What’s the problem? Can someone tell me please?

I can only stay in Singapore till end of next week. What to train them on? Everything they do seems so weak. I don’t think I’ll be able to persuade myself to keep on enduring. I don’t want… But… I’ve spend so much time building up their basics. How can I give up? Tell me how please. HOW?

At least the sec ones didn’t let me down. They’ve at least played a rather structured game. Just need to be more aggressive and build up better passes.

I’ve asked a player to go home during training today. Am I being too cruel? I just feel that she’s wasting everyone’s time with the attitude she has. Time is precious isn’t it? Especially training. Please make an effort to do your job. If you don’t want to train, please don’t come. If you come, don’t waste your time doing rubbish.

I went to club training last night. Not many people turn up but it was fulfilling. I put in my hundred percent and I’m satisfied with my performance. At least I accomplished what I want.

Girls. How about you? Do you set little targets to accomplish? Do you push yourself to be better? Nothing is impossible…

From not knowing how to play volleyball, I can be the main spiker in my poly team in just two months. So can you. Determination, confidence and spirit are most important. And my team was the champion that year.

I hope today’s match makes you want to be better and not destroying your passion for netball.

I’m back from Malaysia. Had just come back from my brother’s wedding during the weekend today. It’s such a big occasion, bringing so many peoples together witnessing this joyous ceremony.

Touched down at Penang airport on Friday afternoon with my sisters and cousin. We had lunch at Queens Bay Mall Sakae Sushi, did some shopping and head home.

It was a busy and memorable trip filled with laughter. Reunion of family, relatives and friends. Peoples that is most important to me.

Saturday, me and my brother went to collect the wedding car and bought beverages, drinks and beers for visitors. Many distant relatives came just for the wedding today. I brought them over to the houses that had been prepared for them to spend the night. All credits to my mum cleaning and getting it ready days before. Its great being able to see them because only times like this brings peoples together. Uncles, aunts, cousins, nieces and nephews. And many I don’t even know who they are and what are their names. So malu!!!

At night, we had dinner at the brides. A table was reserved for us from the groom side. Our sisters and few of our cousins came together to filled the ten seats. The banquet had to be separate because there are too many relatives and friends to be invited. We had to leave after the couple opening the champagne and toasting. It’s the customs.

After that we went home. Many of my secondary school friends are waiting for us. It has been so long since I last saw them. I think it’s about eight to ten years. It’s really fun having that reunion. Drinking, eating, chatting and joking. It brings back so many memories we had together. I love those peoples.

There are also many others at home too. My dad with his friends and uncles, cousins drinking and toasting, aunts chatting in the house, nieces, nephews and younger cousins playing. It’s such a wonderful occasion.

Sunday, wedding day. I’m the best man. We got ready, and went off to the brides at ten. Not many obstacles were put up to us. First was drinking some sour drinks. Not sure what is it but taste like vinegar. Then, dancing… Pole dancing, lucky I was the pole. And finally, singing. All of us sung together and my brother sung the ending part. Heng!!! Cause we are rushing and had to be at the restaurant at one for the banquet. Didn’t really get to talk to the brides mate cause we’re busy doing our job. Haiz…

Anyway, we manage to get the ceremony at the brides side done at eleven plus. Must thank Ah Young my cousin for keeping the ang pao and marking on it. Then back to our side, repeating the ceremony again. Praying and giving teas to elders. So many uncles, aunts and cousins. I’m all wet inside because of the blazer. One part during the tea was really funny. My fourth aunt and her husband was given big cups and had to kiss before drinking it. It’s really the highlight of the occasion. Really thank my aunt and uncle for being such a sport kissing in front of all the relatives.

Banquet starts at one thirty. Me, bro, his wife Fern, mum and dad stand outside to welcome peoples coming and my sisters and her friends being receptions bringing peoples to their table. I sat with my friends from secondary school tuition class during the banquet. The marriage is mostly related to the peoples in this class, including our teacher, Linda.

The karaoke system was fully utilised during the banquet. I did a couple of songs my self too. And all the cousins sung two songs together for the couples. So touching… During the lunch, I drink more than I eat all thanks to my friend Piao. My friend had to drive my home after the banquet. And I was flat on the bed till night time.

Today after flying back went Zenith training at night. And supper with Teck and Jack was great.

Busy day tomorrow. Netballing

The world is coming Singapore in 2011. I’m excited. Are you???

Life is all netball for me now. Coaching, umpiring, and sometimes playing.

I was asked this question many times. Now still is. Why netball? Isn’t it a girl’s sport? I usually give my answer by starting ‘Why not?’ After some explanations the person usually got the idea why. ‘Passion’

I was happy that the other day, a boy from the primary school I coach ask me this question. I gave my answer and it sparks some interest on him to pick up netball. But sadly, there’s no tournament for him to play. I’ve also told him this.

And my girls from the school pop me the question that day too, the teacher in charge asked me the week before. I can see that Singapore is actually starting to accept and it’s also getting popular among guys. But then, there is still no tournament for mens. Not even in carnivals. Only mixed. Why?

I'm tired but don't want to sleep now. Why do I torture myself???

Had less than five hours of sleep last night. Let me correct that, morning.

I can stay in Singapore for twenty two more days including today. Yes, I shall use these time wisely.

Next weekend is my brother's wedding. And I'm his bestman. What do bestman do? I have no idea. But I'm willing to do anything for my brother. I really mean anything.

Something came to my mind. Peoples say that I'm patient. Am I???
I think I'm more like slow to action. Most of the time I'll take a long time to get started on something. Is this bad? I think it is. I'm wasting lots of time to make decisions and got myself in situations neither here nor there. But I think things will ultimately work out in the end.

Damn ang mo. Fucker. Hate it...

Went NUS to play some netball after umpiring. It was lots of fun. I played centre most of the time. Tired, but really fun.

I had to wake up early tomorrow. Had been trying to wake up in the morning for the past two days but couldn't. Ahrrrr...

Boring...

Today went sun tanning in the late afternoon.
Then watch a movie at Suntec. 'Stardust' quite nice.
After that bought some things then home.
Watch dvd after I got home.

I'm really bored...

Few days didn't blog. Not in the mood.

Was coaching yesterday. Morning at Hougang.
Please tell me why? After so long, still can't get it right?
Defenders, please do better.

Then, went PasirRis to another school training. First time coaching primary. It's so different. Players are more discipline, but skills level is much lower. Will need more planning on it.

Today umpired at ToaPayoh for coperate league final.

Hmmm... What should I do tomorrow?

Damn... My application to extend stay in Singapore was rejected. Ahrrrr... Is it a good thing or a bad thing?

Will probably have to spend some time in Malaysia untill work starts in January next year. Sad!!! Try not to think about it untill my entry pass expires, cause it really makes me worry.

Not sure what to do during that one month in Malaysia.
Will I be able to use the air ticket to HK from Singapore in December?
How about the original plans I have for these two months?

It's a tiring day for me. Went to office to go CCAB together with my colleagues in late afternoon. Umpired two games there then went to play netball at NUS at night. It was really exhausting playing netball for two hours with only little rest. Lotsa fun!!! But this old man is having knees and ankles ache now.

Had been umpiring quite often lately. Actually, almost everyday.

Rot at home.

Don't find it weird if you see mushrooms growing on me. Had been rotting at home for days now. Ahhhhhhrrrrrr...

Lucky next week got things to do almost everyday. If not, I'm going to turn into a caveman.

Ahhhrrrrr... I'm bored out of my mind.

Gonna get crazy soon if I don't get something to do seriously. I wanna start working...

Not sure if it's true. I took this test two days ago.

KS, you're 60% Feminine.

That means you're 40% masculine. When we compare your results with other men it shows that you are somewhat more feminine than average.

Went Malaysian Embassy in the afternoon to renew my passport. But only can do it in the morning. Had to go another day.

Watched a movie at Lido before going KNC to umpire. Was slackingduring umpire today. Ahrrrr...

After that went out with a former church friend. It's nice catching up after so long.

I love cycling. Against strong wind, under the rain today. 50km, averaging 23km/h

Drained... I'm glad I didn't rot at home today.

Went basketball in the morning. Had tons of fun playing and laughing listening the guys joking on one another. Then lunch together before going to Bedok.

I like hanging out with peoples. I like listening to conversations and only speak when I'm required to.

That's me.

Rain during coaching today, so trained in the hall. Volleyball girls were training in the hall too. Ok. Anyway, got a surprise birthday celebration from the girls today. Thanks!!! Love the presents and card. Haha! My birthday was exactly one month ago actually. But still, it’s very sweet of you all.

Rushed to SP to umpire IVP netball after that. As usual, umpire doesn’t get credit for doing a good game. Not that I did very bad today. I know I miss some, but I was trying my best. Anyway, this won’t stop me from wanting to do better. It will be a motivation for me to excel.

Ouch!!! My shoulder ache. Shouldn’t have done those spikes at school today. I just can’t stop myself. I love volleyball.

Pigging again today. Woke up for brunch then back to sleep till almost six in the evening today.

The workshop today on zone was great. Learned alot from Robin.

Came home at ten thirty just now, and till now still don't feel like showering. All I want to do is sleep. Haha... I'm such a pig.

Ouch!!! My knee is killing me. Should have worn my McDavid knee guard today. Late, late, late… Always late to the goal line. Ahrrrr…

Girls. Jia You!!! I want to progress the coaching, but your individual skills are still not there yet. How? Netball is a team game, I want to teach you all team tactics leh. We’ll have to talk about it on Thursday. Please Jia You!!!

Why can't I just enjoy the free time I have now???

Like everyday, I'll have to think of things to do and try to do something meaningful. WTF!!! I'm just getting myself tense actually.

'KS' Go out la kopi and read few books lah... That's good way to kill time.

Went JB yesterday. Hmmmm... Felt insecure after crossing the JB border. Why? Is it because of the stories peoples said about JB that had affected me? Or is it the surroundings? Or is it because I was alone?

Today was JunJia's birthday party. Few of us from Zenith went together. And after the birthday party, we went for movie. 'Mr Woodcock' I'll give it two out of five stars. Not the kind of show I would pay to watch in the cinema actaully.

I'm such a pig. Woke up in the afternoon, had lunch, watch an episode of the drama I was watching and then back to sleep again untill five plus.

Shouldn't have went training yesterday. My knee is killing me. Can't even get myself to run well for umpiring today. Or is it the sleeps? Ahhrrr...

After so much sleeping today, I still feel like sleeping now. How come?

I seriously need to get a life.

My pinky is injured. Can't bend and it's as big as my other fingers. Ouch!

Training last night was tiring. TP court has new surface now. But I don't like the colour.

Need to wake up early tomorrow for coaching. Arrr...

Just came back from SP for umpiring. KS, you must do better. You can do better than that.

I want to improve. I want a breakthrough.

Wah!! Look at the weather. Hope it don't rain later.

Went to watch Resident Evil yesterday. Good show. But it's sad how a virus can actually destroy the whole world.

After the movie went to play some netball at NUS. Wasn't that much fun this time. Hmmm... Maybe I was too serious.

Went supper with Weide after reaching home. Talked about lots of stuffs. Many thing needs time to work out.

Just woke up!! Haha... this time, I really had enough sleep.

Yesterday umpired at UWC for a league. Majority of the kids didn't really know how to play, so it was quite messy, but cute. Once the shooter look at me and from her look should be waithing for me to tell her what to do. I blow her for held ball. Haha! Next time look at your coach for instructions, not the umpire. There's drizzle during the last quarter but we carried on.

Then before IVP there's rain. But it stoped in time for the games to continue. Wet grounds. Umpired TPvsNYP game with Eric. I wasn't very consistent, and was late going to the goal line many times. Hope I can do better for the next game.

Today's carnival was fun. I played mostly shooter, once keeper and once centre. I think I did better job playing centre and keeper than shooting. Misses quite alot of shots today. But anyway, we came in champion. No prize money though.

And there's colours of weather today. Started off with nice shaddy morning, then suddently there's lightning and thunder, after that came the sun, then strong winds, and finally it pours like running tap. Games had to stop because of the rain. Three games left but couldn't play them.

Tired but don't feel like sleeping now. Don't wanna wake up early again. I wanna sleep till tomorrow afternoon.

This is the second day I’m waking up way early. It’s only five thirty now and carnival later starts at nine. Why can’t I get myself to sleep?

Yesterday was the same too. Helped to umpire a friendly in the morning but was there an hour early. What’s with me? Maybe I’ve been sleeping too much the past week.

You must be bored reading my blog. Don't lie, it's boring. I felt it myself.

Think I should post more of what's in my mind than what I'm doing.

That day when I was buying the sun tan lotion from Gardian, this happened. I return the casher the plastic bag she use to put the sun tan lotion thinking of saving her a plastic, but instead she trow it in the dustbin. So much for caring the enviroment. I was speachless!!!

I guess we'll be living in piles of rubbish in the near future if we don't start caring for our enviroment.

Was sleeping the whole day today. Woke up around one then went to bed again at four. Up at seven then went cycling. First time cycle to Orchard. Then to Kallang and there's a friendly game going on. So, I offered to umpire. Bad stamina, I was walking third quarter onward. Hiaz...

Played tennis at Kallang today. Back hand is so bad, totally no control. Then umpire opens game. Long time didn’t umpire. Just realised that I didn’t do any in September. No wonder I’m so rusty. Made a wrong call today. Ahrrrr… Must practice before IVP starts. And I was walking in the fourth quarter. Ahrrrrrrrrr…..

Played netball yesterday. I suck. I suck. I suck.

Today went swiming and tan before collecting my girls tee. Two huge bags all the way back home. Bought some stuffs on the way home too. Got the CD I was looking for at Junction8, then bought sun tan lotion at Bugis, nearly forgot, then some stuff at provision shop downstairs.

I guess it’s time to rearrange my wardrobe. Storing up all office wears and sports wear to be more accessible. Suddenly got so many dry fit tees. Got five more just in two days.

This the result of a Brainteaser Test I did last month. There are 30 questions.

KS, the number of questions you scored correctly is: 27

Hello again and congratulations! As we've noted, your score is in the 96th percentile of people who took this Brainteaser test.

But now, in your personalized report, we can get down to the nitty-gritty — the explanation of where your mental strengths lie and how you can look at Brainteaser questions in the future to get better scores!

The first section of your report, Problem-Solving Abilities, analyzes how well you scored in each of the intellectual abilities measured by the test (quantitative ability, visual-spatial ability, linguistic-mathematical ability, pattern recognition, and logical ability.)

The second section, the Brainteaser Test Answer Key, gives you the correct answers to the Brainteaser Test questions and offers explanations as to how you could have processed and solved the problems.

The third section, the Brainteaser Bonus, gives you some challenging new brainteasers so you can flex your newfound brain power after having read this report. This section also includes an answer key.

Quantitative Ability
You scored in the 100th percentile in quantitative ability.

What is quantitative ability?
Quantitative skills are marked by an ability to solve numerical problems easily. People who are good at figuring out a tip or dividing a check amongst friends are tapping into their quantitative abilities. But for some people, quantitative ability also means that they are able to separate a whole into its constituent parts more readily than others.

Visual-spatial Ability
You scored in the 96th percentile in visual-spatial ability.

What is visual-spatial ability?
Visual-spatial skills are marked by an ability to easily understand the relationship between objects and physical space. People strong in this ability are good at recognizing how shapes can be manipulated, or how they might look if their appearance were altered in some way, or both. This extends also to the ability to project what an object would look like if rotated in a 3-dimensional space. For example, someone would use visual-spatial skills to imagine what a room would look like if they were to rearrange the furniture. Without a vivid imagination, it would be difficult to have strong visual-spatial ability.

Logical Ability
You scored in the 91st percentile in logical ability.

What is logical ability?
Logical skills are marked by an ability to reason and figure one's way out of a situation or by an ability to translate information from one source to another one that will allow you to better understand it. The first thing someone with logical ability does when faced with a problem is set up a structure that will allow them to solve that problem. One structure might involve using hypothetical questions to reason out a solution: if such-and-such happens, what will happen next? The stronger your logic, the better you're able to question something that doesn't make sense.

Pattern Recognition Ability
You scored in the 87th percentile in pattern recognition ability.

What is pattern-recognition ability?
Pattern recognition refers to your ability to see patterns in things that might not be immediately obvious to the naked eyes. People high in this skill are able to recognize relationships between objects more quickly than others. With pattern-recognition problems, it is the pattern itself you're trying to uncover. In life, this ability is useful in new or confusing situations when recognizing an underlying pattern — whether it's in words, numbers, shapes, sounds, or other stimuli — can help demystify things.

Linguistic-mathematical Ability
You scored in the 65th percentile in linguistic-mathematical ability.

What is linguistic-mathematical ability?
Linguistic-mathematical skills are marked by an ability to truly grasp the meaning of a word or numerical phrase. People with these skills tend to be especially good at calculating practical math problems — problems you would use in your daily life such as guestimating how long it would take you to arrive at a destination depending on the speed you were driving.

Ahhrrrrr...
It's damn boring having nothing to do.

Went out around three today. Went Bugis, paid rental at ATM and had lunch, quite ex and not filling. Then went Suntec. Bank in the cheque from NS. And did some shopping. Couldn't find the CD I want to buy. At five plus, head home. Paid phone bill at 7eleven and got dinner down stairs. Super sian.....

What to do with my life???

Slept whole day today. Went to bed around six in the morning after reaching Singapore. Woke up at four plus in the evening then slept again at six plus then woke up at ten plus till now.

Movie last night was fine. Not many people watching 881 and the cinema were so cold. It’s more like a musical than a movie actually. Nice hokkien songs were sung throughout the whole movie.

After the movie, went bought some stuff, had dinner at a ‘cha chan theng’ then walked to Puduraya for my bus.

If you are wondering why me, mum, bro and his gf visited so many relatives in the previous post. It’s for sending invites to my bro’s wedding. My mum got eleven siblings that’s why I got so many uncles, aunts and many many cousins.





A few of the wedding photos. So nice. When will it be my turn???

29th Sept 2007, 610pm
I’m now in TimesSquare Starbucks KL killing time. Bought eleven o’clock coach ticket just now to go back to Singapore. Think will be reaching around five in the morning. Was walking around in SungaiWang, then BktBintang and was a little regret buying coach ticket for such late timing. Anyway, got myself a movie ticket for seven twenty watching 881 cause didn’t get to watch in Singapore. The movie here cost eleven ringgit. Expensive isn’t it? Then went Sony Style to buy a new pair of ‘peanut’. The old Samsung one I have is a bit spoil with loose wire. No sound from the left sometime.

Last night went Setapak to visit my bro’s gf’s friend. Then had supper at WangsaMaju. Long time didn’t come to this place. A popular hangout place for TARssians. It does bring back some memories.

Dragged myself up this morning. Went to my cousin’s place at Ampang to visit my aunt. My mum’s second brother’s wife. My cousin’s son was so cute. Only one and a half years old, but able to run around and so playful. It’s fun playing with him.

Then head to SungaiLong to visit my grandpa’s brother ‘lauSaZek’ in the afternoon. We had lunch together before my uncle sent me to Puduraya to buy ticket and then SungaiWang. My bro, his gf, and mum parted with me after the lunch. Laptop low batt now. Update later.

28th Sept 2007, 1045pm
Didn’t drive today. Was really tired and can’t concentrate at all. Thanks bro for driving the whole day today! Reached uncle’s place at Kepong around twelve plus. Youngest brother of my mum. Other uncles, aunties, and cousins were there too. Some I recognise, and some I don’t. Especially cousins, very different from my memory. We got to have deserts together with uncles, aunts and cousins for tea before we head for next destination.

Went to my mum’s aunt’s place at Gombak after that. Let’s call her granny. I call granny ‘sa kim po’ in hokkien and she was so happy we visited her today.

Left around seven and meet my cousin for dinner. She is actually my ‘kai’ sister.

Then finally settle at my aunt’s place. My dad’s sis. Not a foreign place to me cause I came here every weekend when I was studying at ShahAlam last time.

The journey today was not totally smooth. We were a little lost from place to place. But still, we managed to find our bearings in the end.

Hope things will be great tomorrow before I return to Singapore on Sunday.

28th Sept 2007, 250am
Going KL tomorrow with mum, bro and his gf. After that will be going back to Singapore from KL on Saturday. I volunteered to drive tomorrow cause bro is going to drive the journey back and I’m not with them. But we are going to start our journey at six in the morning later. Hehe! Only three hours of sleep.

Managed to talk to mum today. Was trying to have a good heart to heart talk but I think I failed. Is the generation gap that wide? I was trying to approach in different ways but I think I wasn’t successful. What I need is a little bit of concern. I really hope that mum will call me in future. A few words are more than enough.

Dad asked me: ‘gou chien yong ma?’ after knowing I’m leaving tomorrow.
I answered: ‘wo hai you’.
It was really nice to hear that. I was actually very happy to hear that.

26th Sept 2007, 7pm
Went to the bank to activate my account today. The last time I used it was more than four years ago. Deposited some money and then was asked to withdraw money to activate it so then can apply for ATM card.

After that went to the dentist. The nurse managed to find my record card and I was twenty one the last time I visited the clinic. Filled my tooth and did plague cleaning as well. The whole procedure only took like ten minutes. I think Dr Leh is the fastest dentist in the world. For peoples terrified of dentist, this is a good clinic to go. Haha!! My jaw was not even sore of opening wide during the procedure. Can imagine how fast isn’t it?

25th Sept 2007, 130am
It’s mid autumn festival tomorrow. Went ‘garden’ with my bro and his gf just now. There were lots of kids and peoples there playing with lanterns and candles. Fire flies like candles are all around the park and we lit some ourselves too. It was nice!

Yesterday we went Pacific shopping centre at Butterworth. I bought a few books. And after that, we went to eat some LokLok. Haha!!! Had been eating well this few days. WanTanMee, Cendol, CharKeuyTiao, JauWaMee, BangChiangKuey, and mum cooked TuKa today. YumYum!!!

22nd Sept 2007, 11pm.
After over seven hundred kilometres and hours on the road, I’m finally home. Eight months I was away this time. Not a lot changes here. There’s a new bathroom in my old room, and I’ve also just try out the massage chair my dad bought. Fabulous!!!

21st Sept 2007, 730pm
Wasn’t able to sleep well last night. Foreign bad, ac room, flat pillow, and no bolster. End up not really have energy to work today.

Anyway, we manage to get eighty percent of the work done today. Haha! Will quickly finish things up tomorrow and Yay! Can go home after that.

Can’t wait to have dinner now, I’m starving.

20th Sept 2007, 8.20pm
Wooow. Took cad so many times today. Cost me more than sixty dollars $$$. Woke up at one plus and after lunch, took cab to Woodlands checkpoint cause was carrying lots of stuffs. But then can’t get out of Singapore cause don’t have special pass. F***!!! Had to go MOM to get it cause my boss didn’t print it out for me when he cancel my work permit. Cab to MOM, got the pass then cab back to Woodlands. Took me more than an hour to get it done. Then finally, I’m at JB. Took cab again to meet my bro and dad at where they are working. Only manage to get about one third of the things done today. Hopefully can finish the job by Saturday. Chao! Going to shower and then dinner.

Going home tomorrow. Think I’ll pack my stuff tomorrow morning then. Damn tired now.

Had squash with Eric before friendly at NYP today. It’s nice to know a little more about squash with Eric’s guidance.

Then waited till almost eight to have enough people to start netball. Had to play all the way cause only have seven players. Shooting was pretty bad for me today. Misses a number of shots. Then ankle ache from last night affects me a lot. Every time I landed on my left is an ouch!! Not just that, my hip is starting to have problem too. I thought its muscle last night but actually it’s my hip bone. From ankle to knee, and now getting to my hip. I see it coming but didn’t expect to be so soon. One word, I’m old. Anyway, today’s game is quite fun though NYP is missing most of their main player.

Went out for supper with Jack and Weide after coming home from the game. It was nice having their company.

Might not be blogging until I’m back from Malaysia a few weeks later. Will be blogging about the trip then.

Ouch! Shoulder knee ankle aches…

Spilt my drink on laptop last night. Heng it’s not spoilt. But the keyboard is a bit sticky now. Haiz…

Took out the pierce ear ring last night and can’t put it back. So went to pierce two more today. This time have to wait two weeks before taking it out. Haha! Birthday present for myself.

Went NUS to play netball just now. Fun.

Wow!!! Another year has gone. Time is passing so fast and it's my birthday again.

Some photos from the carnival.
Hougang Sec
Zenith
Saboing Pam
The other 2 birthday peeps that kena sabo
Me

Steph eating

Ah Zhen

The naughty ones

Woke up late again today. Took cab to TP. Cab trice today. Shouldn’t be taking cab so often. $$$

Didn’t umpire very well today. Complains… Ahrrrr… Umpires don’t get good credit for doing a good job anyway. I’m used to it.

Yay!!! It’s finally over. Overall, it’s a job well done Zenithians.

Celebrated Pam’s birthday after the whole thing. The executioners did a good job with the sabo. Haha!!! Who mention my birthday har??? Got water boomed myself too. Sharks!!!

Went hung out a while with few of the Zenithians before home for dinner. I’m so tired.

Steph and AhZhen played well today. JiaYou!!! Sorry girls. Didn’t manage to guide you all for the games cause busy umpiring. I really hope you all can improve by gaining more game experience. Next phase of training after exam is crucial. It’ll be very tough, but you will feel the difference when you play games after that. Loosing now doesn’t mean you are not good. It just means that you’ll need to train harder and concentrate more during trainings. You’ll find me being loso talking and shouting a lot then.

Woke up a little late and took cab to school for coaching. Rain abit during training then the girls need to go for DB. Bought a printer before heading home.

Hmmm... Don't feel good after today's traning. Don't seems to get what I wanted. Think I should put in more effort planning a good programme.

Ok. Big day tomorrow. First ever Zenith carnival. Hope everything turns out great and peoples joining have a fun experience.

It's great to see Anqi doing fine today. Have a speedy recovery.

Went with the girls for the visit and Vinnci was doing her chem questions. I did some with her but have some conflicting answer. Lets see who's right.

What a day!!!

Went to meet a long long friend for lunch today. My classmate during secondary school. Ten years we didn’t see each other. Able to catch up a bit before head to coaching.

Then during game, my girl dislocated her knee. I was really so shock. It wasn’t a hard fall. But she fell in an awkward position and her body weight forced her knee went out of socket. We dare not move her and waited for the ambulance. It took a while for the ambulance to come, and the paramedic sent her off to the hospital. It must be very painful, but she never cried and shouted at all.

Anqi, stay strong. Need you to be stronger during the recovery stage.

Then went to eat and head to TP for club training. Did sit&reach and agility run before court game. Then, meeting for Sunday’s carnival before ending the day.

Happy Birthday Tina.

Talked to my brother on the phone last night. Will be going back Malaysia on the twentieth September to help my dad and bro at JB before going home together. And then the next week will visit my relatives with mum and bro to send invitation for my bro’s wedding. Yay! Get to go KL, and lots of other places. Looks like a fun and fruitful trip.

Went office to settle some stuff yesterday. I’m not working anymore. Haha!!
Then went NUS to play some netball. It was fun.

Nothing to do today. So boring.

Angry angry angry!!!

I don’t want to be, but I’m just angry. I know It will happen but still, I’m angry over it.

There’s no good for being nice.

Ok. Everyone is different. Everyone’s thinking of responsibilities is different. KS, you can’t expect people to think like you.

Now, it’s my problem again. Hate it. I just hate it.

Didn't get to run for training in the morning cause of the rain. Heng ar! Used the hall for training. It was quite ok. Then went ToaPayoh to catch 5 Nations. Northern Ireland beat Sri Lanka to get Third.

Singapore is the 5 Nations Netball Cup Champion!!!

Well done!!! Next stop, World Champ.
JiaYou Singapore

And, happy birthday Claria!

Singapore won again today. Tomorrow is the big day. Go Singapore Go!!

Had to wake up so early tomorrow for coaching. Run run run... Beat me girls!!!

Sri Lanka beat Northern Ireland today. And Singapore win too. Well done Singapore!!! Gotta fight harder on Saturday. T&T will surely be better geared for the game.

KS. Wake up!!! Stop being so lazy. Work harder for what you want.

Ahhhhrrrrr......

Can't sleep now. Shouldn't have had that coffee and pepsi when watching 5 nations just now.

So hungry. Only had a muffin and two donuts tonight. Lazy to cook instant noodle now.

Ok. 5 nations, now will see who can go into the final. T&T is confirm. I support Singapore. But will have to see how Sri Lanka play against Northern Ireland tomorrow. If SL win, and SG lose to T&T tomorrow. Friday will be a crucial game for SG to fight it out.

Was thinking alot just now. All about netball. I think I'm really crazy over it. Umpiring, coaching, playing. All are different roles but it's fun to tackle each role to perform better. I love this game.

I really feel for her. Train so hard but didn't get to play. It must be tough to get over it.

Then again. There are people that don't train hard but still want to play.

Girls, you know who i'm talking about. Train hard, focus, and concentrate during training ok. You know I don't scold people. But knows your limit.

Singapore won again today. Break for Singapore tomorrow. Thursday will be a tough fight.

It was a boring day at work. So many things to do. Will be so busy tomorrow too.

Don't feel like sleeping yet now. Hmmmm...

Went to watch 5 nations just now. Exciting!!

Yay!! Singapore beat Canada. First quarter was down by two goals but manage to get into momentum to beat them in the end. Close game.

Then Trinidad & Tobago against Sri Lanka. It was an eye opener. T&T players were really fast and physical. How they hold their space. How their one and a half passes. It’s amazing!

Raining whole day today! Makes me so lazy to work. Two more weeks. Counting down to be freeman.

Coach?

I was thinking just now.
Am I a lousy coach?
What sort of image do I carry when I’m coaching?
Hmm… Maybe I should ask someone that seen me coach before and see what I can do to improve this.
I know my knowledge of the game is still quite limited.
I’m trying to improve.
I watch games and try to analyse it.
I watch trainings and try to pick up useful tips.
I know there are many more things I can do to gain knowledge of the game and apply it on trainings.
But it takes time.
It’s a process to grow.
Attempt and failure.
Just keep on trying.
I’ll succeed one day.
Just don’t be afraid of failing.

Didn’t go basketball today, instead I went Bedok for netball. Played GD for three quarters. Why am I so slow? Damn knee. I should be retiring soon. In a bad condition now. Ankles are also aching. Kao!!!

It was raining when I left. Cycled in the rain to East Coast and then home. How I envy the rain…

5 nations starting tomorrow. Yay! Next week will be an exciting week.

Coaching today wasn’t really what I intended it to be. But anyway, still manage to get some things done. Still at basics. So behind time actually. Only five more months to zonal next year. So many things need to be done still. Don’t really have time to repeat what I’ve thought.

Girls please remember what I’m teaching and try not to miss training. All the skills are important components to play a good game.

Don’t give up!
I’m not going to give up on you all!
Jia You!!

Lunch at TaoPayoh today. LeeFanNanKee Chiken rice. Nice!!! But abit ex to spend ten dollars for lunch though.

After work cycled to Bedok. Long time didn't cycle. The journey was tough. It was usually pretty easy but today feels like hell. My stamina has really gone down so much.

After training cycled to East Coast. I love the place.

Yay!! Saturday tomorrow. Coaching!!

Merdeka.

Happy 50th Birthday Malaysia!!

Enjoy the video.

Had just received an email from my coach saying this year end club activity is Standard Cart Marathon. Sharks!! Running… Lucky only need to do the ten k one.

Went shopping after work today. Bought a book, contacts saline, tissues and new briefs. Wanted to do it yesterday but was too tired.

Ahhrrr… Boring life.

Okok. I shall make it more interesting. Hmmm… What can I do?

Took a Personality test today and here's what it says about me.

Your Personality Type: The Critic

How You Approach Life
You are a Critic in the best sense of the word. You analyze, interpret and evaluate the issues and people in your world. And you do so in a way that is much more earnest than most. That's probably because you have an almost superhuman sensitivity to activities around you. Things that go unnoticed by most might rock you like an earthquake. Sure this might feel unsettling at times, but you turn it into a positive. You can see details that others pass by.

You place, or should place, a particularly high value on structuring your environment. Why waste time with chaos and disorganization when all it does is stress people out and make them uncomfortable? For you, it makes much more sense to lead an ordered and predictable life. The efficiency of living that way will free up more time to do the things you enjoy most. This is important when one of the things that matters most to you is success.

You are highly motivated to succeed, and want it to show. How else will people notice your accomplishments if you don't project that image with whatever you've got — your home, your car, your wardrobe, your job? There's always room for self-improvement in your book, and that's not something everybody is willing to admit. You never stop trying to be the best, or have the best, that life can offer. And that shows in your charge to make it big and cash in on the rewards.

Aside from your drive, the truth is you have a very gentle, perceptive spirit. People might fault you for your particularly discerning eye, but that attitude might just stem from their own insecurities about what you see. You're complex and thoughtful, and you feel obligated to judge both by appearance, and by what you see below the surface.

Chances are, you hate arguing and other tense situations — especially when they arise at work. But ultimately, everyone notices your motivation and talent. You're an original thinker, and people will respect your judgments once they get to know you.

Keep at it, Critic. The world is a more discerning place thanks to you.


Section II — What makes you a Critic?

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types — your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type.

In your case, Critic, your two sub-types are Thinker and Success. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Thinker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics.

Your primary type is Thinker
Like other people with Thinker characteristics you are extremely sensitive to external stimuli. You tend to be extraordinarily aware of your surroundings — responding emotionally to small changes that others might not even notice. To combat feeling overwhelmed, you may like to move a bit more slowly and seek out calm environments that won't stress you out.

Intellectually, you like to dig deep into a problem to solve it — even when others grow impatient and move on to other subjects. As far as entertainment goes, you gravitate toward media that is sentimental and peaceful — you like feel-good stories. You are more likely than others to be interested in books, inspirational media, self-improvement and arts and crafts.

If there is a change in the air, Thinker, nobody is more aware of it than you. You have an unusually refined sensitivity to subtle changes in your environment and from time to time, this can manifest as a fear that the worst is going to happen. You may have a tendency to be constantly on guard because you ultimately are working to prevent a perceived catastrophe from happening.

Your secondary type is Success
People with Success characteristics are generally driven by achievement and recognition of their talents. They are motivated to work hard to have nice things. They also feel to some degree that their possessions reflect their hard work which is something to be proud of. They are compelled to excellence by a number of factors and they strive to climb whatever ladders come their way — whether corporate or social. To succeed and make a good impression on others, these Success people are focused on the external appearance of how they look. They sometimes see it as an indicator of their internal value.

Intellectually, Success people are goal-driven. They tend to focus on the end results more than the process that gets them through an issue. In terms of entertainment, Successes enjoy media that is sensual, sexy, flashy and loud. They tend to avoid media that is too introspective or sentimental. They like to shop for anything from clothes to cars. They enjoy reading magazines and are usually interested in their physical and mental health.

So full now. Ate so much. Had ChuChaThang with rice for dinner after netball at NUS. And there was a Pasar malam at Clementi and Shumin bought some keropok for all of us to eat together. And then she gave me some of her ChuChaTang cause she can’t finish. Also ate a slice of very rich chocolate cake at NUS cause they were celebrating JiaLong’s birthday. And then eat again at home cause sis had cook dinner. So so full now.

Ok. Eating aside. Finally finish the book I was reading today. Rich dad poor dad. Going to continue read his work. Very inspiring and useful tips on financial.

Two and a half weeks more to freedom. Haha!! Think I’ll be coaching fulltime for a while. Maybe can take up short courses in this period and also cultivate my reading habit.

Fixtures

03 September
4.30pm - Opening Ceremony
6.00pm - Singapore vs Canada
8.00pm - Trinidad & Tobago vs Sri Lanka

04 September
6.00pm - Canada vs Trinidad & Tobago
8.00pm - Singapore vs Northern Ireland

05 September
6.00pm - Northern Ireland vs Trinidad & Tobago
8.00pm - Sri Lanka vs Canada

06 September
6.00pm - Northern Ireland vs Sri Lanka
8.00pm - Trinidad & Tobago vs Singapore

07 September
6.00pm - Canada vs Northern Ireland
8.00pm - Singapore vs Sri Lanka

08 September
1.00pm - 3rd & 4th placing
2.15pm - Arrival of GOH (Mrs S R Nathan)
3.00pm - 1st & 2nd Placing
4.15pm - Prize Presentation & Grand Draw

Aches… Ahhrrrr… My ankles, knees…

Went Botanical garden for picnic today and Singapore Chinese Orchestra was performing there. Great music, good food, lying on the grass looking at the evening sky. Few hours out of worries of life.

I’m having a headache now. Not those with problems but the physical one. Think I smoked too much today.

Such a relief that Netballuxion is over now. Although short of umpires, we manage to pull through. Thank you so so much Amy, Kelly and Nigel.

Sorry girls. Couldn’t be with you all a lot today. I’m proud of you all having the spirits to play hard. We’ll play in more tournaments in future ok. Thanks for the cards too. Very touching.

After umpiring today, few of us went Swensens to eat. Slurp!! Love the ice cream.

So so tired now…

I'm gonna be so dead tomorrow. Still short of umpires for Netballuxion. Haiz...

Thanks for those that help me. Really appreciate it.

Umpired opens training game just now. KS you need to work harder. Open your eyes bigger ok. Did a very challenging two balls game in the last quarter. It's really an eye opener. Helps to widen my vision so much.

Ok. Gotta sleep now. Hope everything turns out well tomorrow.

Went training today but didn’t train. So not in the mood and tired.

Was planning to go home after work, but when I reach the bus stop decided to go training instead.

Discuss about club mixed carnival after training. Really don’t want it to be cancel. I’m not a quitter.

Ok. Must turn it into motivation.

Still looking for Netballuxion umpires. Damn!! Only two more days.
I’ve tried all the umpires I know. Aahhhhrrrrrr…

Ok ok. Calm down. Things will work out. Think of what you can do KS.

Girls. Jia You in Netballuxion ok.

Semua ini hanyalah mimpi.

Sing bangun... bangun... Masa ke sekolah.

'How I wish'

Went to check out ASEAN schools final result. Singapore lost 50 - 35 to Malaysia.

Met my buddy Jack during lunch today. Such coincident.

Went NUS after work to play some recre netball. It was really fun. Playing purely to enjoy. We laugh at each other, trick one another, and also help the newbies how to play. I played none stop from seven to nine thirty. All four courts were packed with peoples. Tired but fun.

I’m still looking for umpires to umpire Netballuxion. Please help if you are free.

Icing my knee, drinking milk and munching chips now.

Had a basketball friendly today. And Yay!!! We won by four points. Haha!!
But I played terrible. Sucks man!! Missing so many passes, ball was striped away so many times, and missing shots I shouldn’t. Really donno why my hands were shaking during the game today. Am I nervous? But my mind was quite calm. Ahrrr… But WTH. We won. Haha…

Went to watch ASEAN schools game today. Before that had lunch at Fork & Spoon. Yummy GaoChap. Nice beef… Ok. About the game. Singapore lost by four goals to Malaysia. Ya. I support Singapore although I’m a Malaysian. I even wore red and white for them. But they lost. Hiaz… Must win tomorrow ok. Finals at twelve thirty noon. Wah Lao!! Who can go watch? Peoples working and schooling lah… Anyway, Go Singapore…

After the game, since I have time to kill before friendly, I went to watch a movie alone. Yup! Alone. Ke lian hor… Haiz… Spent seventeen bucks on it. Did I mention I need to cut down my spending? Ok. Gotta be discipline.

I hate Mondays.

Went to office late today. But manage to rush and finish the stuff before one thirty.

Head to school and reach Hougang at two. So went to eat at point. JiaoZi noodle. I like the dumplings. Nice...

Reach school at two thirty but no one was there only Ms Ong. Then saw Mavis in the canteen. Sucks!! I wonder how much the girls like natball actually. Don't have high hopes for them now.

Some of them came back from DB at three plus. All soake and wet. Was thinking maybe can go watch ASEAN schools game at five but none wanted to go except Claria. Well, in the end I didn't go too. Tomorrow then go watch Singapore Malaysia game.

DB, is it that fun? Or is it because it's outside school that makes the enjoyment? But I hope the girls will put netball as priority. Without commitment and passion, lets not talk about result.

Netballuxion next week. Hope they can see how good they are. Or maybe how bad. That'll ignite or maybe diminish their will to play netball. I really don't want to waste my time and energy.

Didn’t go watch ASEAN schools today. Worked till almost seven. Was home after that and donno what to do. Working again tomorrow. Hope I can finish the things I need to do. Hmmm… Why am I worrying about work ar? Guess I’m really bored…

Think about so many things today.

Went to check out how to start a company on the web this morning. But don’t think I can do that yet. Need a good business plan.

Thought of coaching full time. But is it viable?

So many things I need to do now. Zenith carnival stuffs. Don’t really feel like getting it done actually. Super sianzz…

Need to find umpires for Netballuxion. Only got one now, plus me two. Ahrrrr… Need at least five more. Help me please!!!

I’ll be going back home for a while in October and November. Hope I can learn something from my dad while helping him with his business. At the mean time read more about money making, and also catch up with mum, dad and bro. Looking forward to it :-)

But I’ll have to leave things in Singapore. Girls, take care of yourselves ok. Get fit while I’m away.

Late for work as usual today. TGIF Yay!!!

Body aches man... Especially calfs and knee.

It's really rare that I can still remember the dream I had last night. What's happening? Her face keep poping up in my mind. Ahrrr...

My girls are so guai today. Ask them to come watch game they did. But most of the time I saw them using their phone talking and msging. Opps… I was supposed to be umpiring.

Yup! It was tough umpiring opens game. So fast. Run like hell. Position, reposition, position, reposition. But still, I guess I missed out so many things again. Position earlier KS. Read the game. Ya… I’m trying to. Hmmm… The key is where to position? Which angle? And my feet don’t want to move sometimes.

Asean School starting tomorrow. But only can watch after work. Should I bring the girls to watch on Saturday? Singapore playing at five. Sunday at three. Monday can’t watch at all. Work. Haiz…

Okok...

My job is actually not that bad lah. Just that it's extremely boring and very routine. And the result is much because of the current mood I have now. Just can't wait for Sept 15th.

Hey. I've just took a test on 'Is Work Wearing You Out?'

Here's how I score.

KS, you're 15% satisfied at work.

That means other people are considerably more happy with their jobs than you are. To put it simply, your current job is not meeting your needs and desires of what you hope to get out of a job. You might get some satisfaction from the social atmosphere at work. But the thing dragging you down most is leadership opportunities. Showing you these extremes — what makes you happiest and most frustrated at work — is just one way to help you see what's working for you and what isn't when it comes to your job. Just remember, there are 6 additional dimensions that also can add to, or detract from your working experience, too. You may find that, like so many others, how happy you are with your job fluctuates a good deal. One month, you may feel content in your position, only to find yourself feeling miserable the next. Becoming aware of all 8 components of Job Satisfaction is a great first step towards determining what you really want from your job. In this section, you'll discover how important each factor of job satisfaction is to you personally, and then how well your current job meets your needs. The chart below shows how you scored on all 8 of the dimensions that help determine your overall job satisfaction score. They're arranged in order from things that could use improvement, to things you like more about your job. Understanding how you feel about each of the dimensions will give you insight into the full picture of your job satisfaction, and offer you specific steps for what you can do to improve your work life!

leadership opportunities
0 of 10

job security
0 of 10

success potential
0 of 10

personal growth
2 of 10

sufficient compensation
2 of 10

positive environment
2 of 10

work-life balance
2 of 10

social atmosphere
4 of 10

Damn… Smoking hell lot lately. Really need to cut down.

Feel like going to fall sick. Sore trout, cough, runny nose… Need to sleep early today.

Time to think about life. Make money. Take the risk… Learn the life lessons. WTF… I wish I can take the step. Have a plan.

What really matters? I donno.

What matters to me most? I ask myself and can’t find an answer. So? I guess nothing matters actually. I can lose everything and still be the same as I am now. And so, why am I not doing anything?

‘Change’ September 15th. After that, life will be anything I want it to be. I can do anything I want.

Ok. It’s time I learn something. Explore… I will go explore life and learn things from peoples around me.

Went NUS to play netball today. It’s also the welcome tea day for the recre netball. So many peoples were there. Played and had so much fun. But now with an aching shoulder and knee.

I gave my boss the envelop today. Last day fifteen Septamber.

I donno what to do yet.
Should I study?
Should I find another job?
Or should I just enjoy life?
But definitely, I’ll have to cut down my spending.

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I’m so dead…

Umpired till three plus because of the rain. And I didn’t umpire well during the final. What a game. Nike won.

Went Marina to eat. A HK style restaurant. The food was nice. Juicy CharSiew noodle and YunYong.

I was bad in offence during basketball today. Really so off form.

Monday again tomorrow. Sucks…

Cabbed to school this morning cause woke up late. But I wasn’t late to school. Haha…

Ran with the girls to Amk and back. Siong!!! Was icing my knee after shower just now but the swelling didn’t go down. Shit…

Girls. JiaYou… Next time beat me ok.

So tired. Tomorrow umpiring Pesta Sukan and after that basketball.

Back from 511 for supper. Liver MiSua and BakChoMe. So nice…

Ok. This is what happened at Streetz. I had six basketball games but only played three. Fist one at six lost to the team that got Champ. Second one eight plus was quite an easy win. After that the guys and I went to watch Rush Hour 3. Third one at twelve plus was a draw. It was pretty rough. Almost got into a fight with the other team on court, but we were cool after that. After much waiting, game at four plus was a walkover to us. Then wait again till six plus for game five but it rains just before the game starts. The guys decided to go home instead of waiting for the rain to stop so didn’t go into second round. But I was there for mixed netball.

Waited till eleven plus for our first game where it should be at nine thirty. We won by only one goal against NYP twists. Haha… Revenge for Pesta. Then other games was easy except the last game in round one against F&B. I’ve tried my best but we lost six to two. Can tell from the picture below lah. Then Nothing vs Everything and Everything won. The fight for third we lost too. So end up Nothing got nothing except goodie bags.

Anyway, it was good experience, good company, good knowing Suntec better, good to know that I can stay up thirty three hours without sleep, and good night!!!

Tired... Still so tired today after about twelve hours of sleep. Work is so boring...

Tomorrow coaching early in the morning. Morning run. Ahhhhrrrr...... ''I'm not the one need to train up stamina.'' Ok ok... For the girls sake.

Damn!!! Can't clean off the stick on tattoos.

I survived.

33 hours without sleep. Finally got my bed. Post about Streetz tomorrow.

ZZZzzzzzz.......

Damn it. Woke up by a call from someone trying to sell me stuff.

The game with 21s was fun yesterday. But my stamina sucks. The only time I'm not breathing so hard is when I play GS. And during the last quarter I play GD, I nearly pengsan. Anyone know CPR? Stand by ok...

Body aches again now. Ahrrrrrr..... I feel so old.

I'm quiting my job. Told my boss yesterday. Hope I can find something I like to do.

82.7%

Yup! From the three quarters I shoot today, I hit 82.7%, 24 out of 29 attempts. Haha!!! I wanna shoot above 90% the next game.

Hope I can shoot basketball well tomorrow. I’m so gonna be dead. Play ball for twenty four hours. Definitely need lots of coffee and cig.

Yes. I have decided.
Not gonna sit on the fence being neither here nor there anymore.
I will be a free man soon.

Boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3rd

Ahrrr… Why no double knock out in second round. I’m so confident if we play NYP twist again we’ll definitely beat them. It was so close in the first round game with them, lost by one goal. One goal only!!!!

Zenith!! Go Zenith!!!

So tired… Aching everywhere now.

Monday tomorrow. Blue blue blue…

But only working three days. Haha… It’s gonna be so exciting. Tuesday, game with U21. Wednesday, Thursday, Streetz basketball and netball. Saturday, coaching. Going morning jog to AngMoKio and back. Sunday, donno what to do yet, maybe go play basketball. Fun!!!

Good morning!!

Pesta sukan later. Current mood is very different from last week. I'm out to kill today. We'll be the champion!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had just showered after reaching home.

Was at school for my girls friendly. We tied seventeen all with Serangoon. I thought we can easily beat them but I guess I was wrong. Many injuries too. So messy. Umpires were bad, players were injured, and the girls under performed. They were so nervures. They really need more game to tune themselves to take game normal.

Anyway, it’s great seeing the girls today. Miss them after two weeks didn’t see them actually. After the friendly, we played games. I played too. Haha… Then late lunch at Point was funny. They were trying to teas me with my Malaysian ascent.

Didn’t bring sun cream today and got a little burned. Will be another day under the sun tomorrow. Hot hot hot…

Wanted to go watch Intercon today but after shower really don’t feel like going out anymore. So lazy…

Yup! I’m so late for work today. Anyway, it doesn’t matter.
My colleagues and I went TaoPayoh for lunch. The rojak at HDB hub food court is really yummy!

Received Streetz Basketball fixtures today. First game at six and last game at nine the next morning. Then after that Mixed Streetz Netball that morning and afternoon. First netball game clashes with last basketball game. Ahrr... Hope the basketball game will end earlier that day. And if get into second round in basketball, I think will need to say bye bye to netball. Haha…

Why eye BIG BIG right now?

I gonna be so late for work again tomorrow.

Training was great today. Although only get to play two quarters with my team but I think we did alright. Manage to work something out at least. Aim to go second round on Sunday.

Had just sent out some Streetz Netball stuffs to the ladies, but I’m still not sure which team am I in the mixed. Hope it doesn’t clash timing with the Streetz Basketball.

I’m so bored.
I really need something new in life now. Last night, I suddenly thought of leaving Singapore to Hong Kong maybe. Just wanna try something new. Maybe can spend a few years there too like what I’ve done in Singapore. I know language is not a barrier to me. And maybe I can even start a Netball club there. Haha… Having that thought is just so exciting.
But well… Only just thinking.

Wan Ton! Wan Ton!

I think I’ve made enough to start a Wan Ton stall today. Haha…
Wasn’t feeling very well. Runny nose, itchy trout and coughing.
Shit!!! Viruses, bacteria’s, go away…

Cycled to KNC tonight.
Went to watch the open squad training hopping to learn a thing or two.
The nineteen’s were there training together as well.
And so, there were more than twenty players at court one doing different drills.
The drills were mainly about offering and keeping it at the ball side.
It was great seeing the progressions and the variety of drills can be used.
A fruitful trip for me. Learned some stuff today. Haha…
And PeiQing injured herself during training.
Hope she’s alright.

My trout is itchy. Hope it doesn’t get worst tomorrow. Irritating…

Icing my knee now. Please don’t swell. Please…
Played some netball today. Felt really weak when I play.
Is it the tiredness or I’ve weakened?
Shall I get myself back in shape?
What for?

Maybe after the tournament is confirmed then.

Accidentally elbowed a player and her eye lid were cut and bled. I’m really sorry…
Sorry…

Slept till dinner time just now.
Missed basketball today and next week couldn't go.
I really want to have my last great tournament before I retire for good.
Sleeping again real soon.
So feel like not going work tomorrow.
Can I don't go work?
Can I don't work?
Money...
Can't I just find something I enjoy to do as my job?

Just got home. Extremely sleepy now.

Yesterday morning wake up super early to catch Polite game at nine. NYP lost to NP by only one goal. After that, I umpired the ten fifteen game.

Then head to Kallang for Pesta Sukan. Was almost late because of the waiting twenty minutes for bus thirty one at TaoPayoh. And game was postponed to next Sunday.

Had lunch with so peoples from the team and then karaoke. It was fun… After that hang out till just now.

Hey. I have a new nick. ‘FrankieSingKaraContainingButt’ How it come about?? Long story.

Chao… Need to catch some beauty sleep.

Went down stairs to grab some munch at seven eleven. While walking I felt the ache of my ankle and knee. Is it because of the cold weather lately?

Went for netball at Yishun but only three people were there. Haha... Pathetic. But I did some shopping at North Point before that, so still consider a fruitful trip.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day. Umpire Polite in the morning and playing Pesta Sukan in the afternoon.

Pesta Sukan, wasn't really excited this time round. Not that I don't intend to win, but I'm just not confident at all with the line up. And since the club had decided just to have fun, I'm going to do just that. Hope the rest is having the same mind set.

Good morning!!

I'm at home. Had just cooked myself instant noodle for brunch. I've mixed two flavours together. Haven't eat yet but hope it's not weird.

Raining raining again. So cold... I think I need some body fats.

I have really low concentration umpiring today. Felt like going to fall sick. You know the kind of feeling, extreme tiredness with warm body but feeling cold.

Went CGH today for follow up on my knee. I’ll have to cut down high impact sports if I want to continue to do sports. Contradicting isn’t it. Guess I’ll have to select the time I do impact sports. And doctor says, I’ll have to stop eventually if the condition gets bad.

After seeing the doctor I went to collect my glucosamine supply and anti-inflammatory. Then took bus to woodlands and travel like almost two hours. I think I should get myself a bike. Was thinking of buying like one year ago but till now still didn’t.

I think today is even colder than yesterday. My hands were freezing all day in office. Like working in a refrigerator.

Went to see Kate for my test review after work. I need to do the test again. Haiz…

Umpired Intercon game just now. Really tiring…

Busy at work today. Still trying to complete the stuffs last week. I’m really slow at work.

It’s freezing cold these two days. I better wear an extra layer tomorrow.

Had just finished another book today. It’s really good. Shall read more on the writer's work.

Anyone got antiboredom pills? I really need some. Give me the extra strong dose please.

Ouch! My shoulder is really killing me. So so so painful… Had been aching for days now.

Umpired polite game today. My runs were late again. Read the game KS. Alert and always ready to go. Shall concentrate more on it on next game I umpire.

Am I being too sensitive? Little thing do borders me. Ok. I shouldn’t be affected.

Back from basketball. Got kneed, elbowed, and rejected once. But I made two beautiful rejections myself too. Or is it three? Hahaha… Should have been more if my timing is better. It’s great fun playing again. Totally enjoyed it. Shall do it again next week.

Shoulder, knees and back is aching now though.

Yesterday was a long day.

Didn’t able to do much again at work cause of another customer. Sharks!

After that took bus to TaoPayoh and met my buddy on the bus. So great! We went for lunch together and then to the sports hall. I umpired three and five o’clock game. I think I did alright for the three but was bad for the five. Irritating coach. The one that ‘Oooiiiee’ a lot, if you know who I mean. Really felt like sending her out the sports hall at times.

Went to shower at the public pool shower and head to PasirRis for bbq after that. It was quite fun eating and chatting with peoples from my club.

Woke up at one just now. Wanted to finish my work but till now I still haven’t start on it. Guess I’m not going to do any of it until I come back from basketball later.

Damn… Slow progress at work. Still got bunch of reports to complete. Doubt I can finish it tomorrow.

Went to Jean’s wedding after work. Happy for her. The person that introduce me to Netball.

Another long day tomorrow.

Blur

Super blur today. Left my phone at home. But no difference actually, not many people contact me usually.

Suddenly got so many things to do at work today. And customer came and took up two hours. Then meeting with boss like almost and hour. Everything was delayed. Will I be able to finish the things I need to complete this week?

Rushed to RP for polite umpiring after work. My runs were really bad. Was late most of the time. Haiz… My knees are really affecting me.

I’m so tired… Exhausted… Gotta sleep now and go work early tomorrow. But I doubt so. Hehe…

Hey! posting again.

Came back from supper with some old friends. I miss those peoples. It was never a stranger being with them. They just know how to treat people nice. I do miss them. But I'll ask myself if I'm ready to go back?

Went to work late today. Woke up like freeking late. Almost nine. But I guess my colleagues are just used to it. Yup. I'm always late for work.

Was organising some stuff for my club regarding Streetz Netball today. Haiz... It always happens. This person want to play together with that, and that with the other. It's all making my life hard man. How to put peoples in teams. Headache headache... But i'm looking at the bright side, at least it's a lesson to learn. Learning to be patient is most valuable.

Tomorrow is another long day. Hope it's a great one for me.

Yay! My mum is alright. Had just talk to her on the phone. It’s great to hear her voice and her concerns. It used to be nagging but now sounded so nice. I really miss home.

Just thinking of the two weeks I won’t be seeing them makes me miss them already. I got so many things I want to teach them. I can’t stop thinking how I can train them better. Please don’t disappoint me.

My brother called last night saying my mum is in the hospital for check up. Suspect of Hepatitis C. Hope the result is negative.

What’s on my mind again? Things just pop up so randomly I can’t seem to focus most of the time.

Wanted to go NUS today but was really tired when I woke up, and decided not to go. So after work I came straight home. Till now I’m still not sleeping yet. What’s wrong ar?

I think I’m really bored of my life now. Nothing to look forward to at work, can’t do much sport anymore, no one to be with when I’m lonely. And really got nothing that excites me. No aim, targets, goals.

Hmmmm… Maybe I should do something different.

Fuck!
Donno what's wrong with blogger, all the page elements are missing.

Polite

Back form RP for Polite. So tired so so tired.

Lucky I didn’t umpire the crucial game just now. My game was quite alright. RP vs ITE. But one of the RP players was injured. Not because of other players causing it. She didn’t land properly and got herself injured. It looks really serious. She was rolling on the floor. Besides that, ITE GK was warned by Vincent for delaying and bad conduct. I wanted to in the first quarter but decide to let her off.

NYP lost to TP today. Only by three goals. Was umpiring the other game so didn’t get to watch. Must be pretty exciting. Herd that both teams underperformed. Guess it’s the first match of the tournament that affects them.

Knees and ankle aching now. Haiz…..

Bored bored bored…..

Came home after umpiring in the morning today. After lunch, took a long nap till eight. Now feel like sleeping already but why is it so hot? Shower first.

The weather is really getting hotter and hotter. Please help to change this. Everyone can do their part. Reduce waste, reduce energy usage.

Ahrrrr….. I’m drained.

Woke up early to umpire nineteen’s game at CCAB today. Don’t really like the court there. So limited space outside the side line and goal line. Vision was so affected with the near distance. But anyway, I didn’t know the score but nineteen beat the visitors again. Great job! Hope they will also perform playing against Bukit Jalill next week.

After that went coaching. I tried to be fierce but failed. I guess I’m too soft hearted. But the girls did show improvements. Much more serious and willing to work harder now. But still, there are still few that is slacking all the time. Please tell me how I can fix them?

Went to watch NL finals after that. The division one game was really close. Tied at full time and had to go for extra time. And Sneakers won by only three goals in the end. Tough luck Nike. It’s an exciting game but it was really rough. The roughest I’ve ever seen. So many injury time was called. And it’s so tough for umpires to umpire too. Those umpiring, you have my respect.

Watched Harry Potter with few of my best friends just now. Although I know the rough story line but there are details I don’t understand. Maybe I should read the book. But then I’ll have to read from the beginning since I’ve not read before.

I really got to sleep earlier tomorrow night.

My love

So tired. Wanted to sleep early but now already two. Sharks!!!!!

Had fun playing basketball just now. Basketball is still my love. I shall do more of it. But can my knees take it? …………………

Had so many things on my mind but donno where to start.

Ok. About today. Work was ok. Then rushed to Kallang for umpire and also to see Kate about my test yesterday. We only manage to talk for like ten minutes and I have to go umpire. Will have to see her again some other time. Not sure if I had pass my test. Hope she didn’t fail me.
Then umpiring was a bit irritating. Haileyberry playing against Singapore nineteen’s. The angmo from Haileyberry was complaining again. Yup! Angmo is always like that. Please lah. Read your rule book. Did I complain about how you play? Don’t complain how I umpire ok.
After umpiring, went TP for my club training. I didn’t train but was there for the meeting afterward. Finally the line up for Pesta Sukan is out. Hopefully no one complain. It’s the committee’s decision.
Then dinner was awesome. We bought durian and I had like almost twenty seeds. And it’s the tiny tiny seed with loads of flesh one. Yummy! But now can’t sleep cause still stuffing.

I was so angry yesterday when my girls were late. Late some more want to complain. Kids nowadays. Really got no respect. Ask them to come at six but instead come at almost seven. I’ve told them to ask me if not sure how to come but no one ask. I really feel like giving up on them. No passion for netball. Not serious. Never listen to me. No confident. And always complain. I’m not going to care about them anymore since May is leaving too. I think my Saturdays are better off spent with some other schools or even just at East Coast roller blading or at Sentosa playing ultimate and volleyball.

Test

I think I failed my test. It was so messy when I coach just now.
Was waiting for my girls to come but they were so late. So I had to borrow players from Kelly for test.
Kate needs to rush off for appointment so I can only know the result tomorrow. And she says she needs to talk to me but no time. I think there must be a lot of things I didn’t do right. Ahrrr…

7 Deadly Sins

I've just taken a test on 7 Deadly Sins

Report:

KS, you're more sinful than the average person.

And it's affecting your life in ways you might not realize. For one thing, if you aren't careful, your drive to excel at all costs may ultimately be your downfall. Feeling good about your successes might be a gratifying way to acknowledge your work and position in life. Still, you, in particular, should beware of prioritizing your achievements above other things and using them as a way to feel superior to others.

If you continue to do so, you might find yourself jeopardizing the things that are most important to you.

How I scored in the 7 Sins:

Pride
8 of 10
Average test taker 6

Sloth
6 of 10
Average test taker 4

Lust
6 of 10
Average test taker 4

Envy
5 of 10
Average test taker 3

Wrath
5 of 10
Average test taker 4

Greed
5 of 10
Average test taker 5

Gluttony
3 of 10
Average test taker 4

Just back from East Coast Lagoon Hawker. Had like so much food for dinner. Really satisfying… Was there with my brother and sisters.
I’m so sleepy now, but gotta get ready for test tomorrow. Haven’t really got prepared yet. Hope it will turns out fine.
My brother going off home tomorrow. Sad!

Physio today almost killed me. Nope, not the exercise. Cause didn’t do any today except warm up cycling. After the warm up, the physiotherapist asked two NYP attachment students to teach me how to stretch. I’ve done all those stretches before but I let them teach me anyway. They showed me and I followed. After stretching was the killing massage. It’s so painful until now my muscles are still aching. Ouch!!!

My brother reached yesterday morning. But I didn’t get to see him until night time during dinner.

Went office to do some stuff before going coaching yesterday. There were only eight girls training because the rest went to dragon boat training. Played some games for warm up and then drills before half court game. Those that went for dragon boat came back just in time to catch div 1 game at Hougang Sports Hall. Gonna bring them watch the playoff again next week. I asked them to tell me what they’ve learned from watching before they can go off and some of them gave me really funny answers. Haha! But acceptable. As long as they’ve learned something.

I umpired very badly yesterday. Think I’m too tired. Low concentrations and bad runs.

After umpiring went for dinner at ClarkQuay with my brother, his gf and gf’s friend. The dinner was alright, but a bit expensive. We went to walk around the river bank after that. And then after one whole round walking the riverside, we went LauPaSat for supper. The Corn Peanut Ice was superb. With nata, jelly and atapchee at the bottom. Slurp…

Slept till one plus today. Had lunch and went Lido for movie. Seeing John McClane in action again was so cool. Best part was him taking down the chopper with his car. Cool!!!

Had dinner at Wisma before going Changi Airport. Rupa is off to Melbourne for studies. After seeing her into check in, she came out again with bunch of sweets for all the peoples sending her off. She took it from the check in counter. Yup! That’s her. Sweet in a unique way.

Physio tomorrow. Coaching test on Wednesday. Gotta get prepared.

I'm hungry.

But no food can satisfy my hunger.

Played ultimate for training today. Now knee and ankle aching. No more ultimate on concrete ground please. Anyway, it was loads of fun. I think everyone enjoyed it very much.

NS had just confirmed with me today that my coaching test is on next Wednesday. Gotta get myself ready for it.

I seriously need more sleep. Good night!

On mc today. Yup! Again… My stomac doesn’t feel very well in the morning. But after sleeping till two in the afternoon, it was much better.

But now, feels that there are lot of gas inside.

After seeing the doctor, I went to watch Transformer. It is quite nice. Next movie I wanna watch is Die Hard 4.

Went NYP for a game after the show. We only have seven players and NYP only got eight. But anyway, we had fun.

My brother and his gf visiting this weekend. I just can’t wait to see him. We’ll have our time together again.

Zenith comm meeting today after work. It was a fruitful session getting some stuff settled. And most of us stayed back to chit chat a while after discussing the club matters. It’s really nice to get to know more about peoples.

And I think I’ve really overcome the feeling inside of me. The feeling of disappointment and hate. I’ve learned to understand what is the big picture inside a coach’s mind, and also to accept that we are all human and not perfect.

It’s a process to grow. It might be hard and tough. But to get there, one has to experience it.

Dragged myself to work again today. Ahhrrrr… Work sucks!

Thought that I’m umpiring tonight but after asking NS, I’m not. Then in the evening, a friend asked me to replace her. So I’m umpiring again.
The guys having game at TP tonight, but I don’t really feel like playing. Now I got excuse not to go.

Went home after work, changed and cycled to KNC. Umpired with PeiSan. She’s having test. And the game was a little messy of the many unclean challenges. Testers came to talk to us during half time and we were more cautious after that.

NL is coming to an end. Saturday div one game and then play off next Saturday.

Continuing My Story

My story telling time continues.

Ok. Secondary school. I was actually a very quiet person. Till now, I still am. I like to listen more than talk. And because of this, teachers will always think that I’m a good student. And at that time, I seldom mix with girls in class. Sorry to say this but it’s true, I don’t even know some of the name of my girl classmates. And during my school times, my allowance is like only twenty thirty ringgit a month. I can’t remember how much but it was really little. So, I rarely have snacks or tidbits. And everyday, my mum will make us food to take to school. At least other students envy me for having such loving mother. Haha…

So after SPM (O level), I applied for TAR College and Poly. I went to TAR College at KL for like a month before I was accepted into Poly. And I choose to study at Poly because the school fees are way much cheaper. I have three hundred ringgit allowance monthly for my first sem at Poly. All sem one students are given to stay in school unless you gave it up. I manage to save up some money despite that the three hundred is for everything. I bought my first hand phone with my savings then. And during weekends, I would travel from Shah Alam to KL to be with my brother and sister which is studying at TAR College. I’ll usually travel for like two hours with train and also with bus before I have my motorbike at sem three. I study mechanical engineering and there are no girls at all in my class. So, for those three years at Poly I didn’t really get to mix around with girls at all.
Sem two. I no longer stay in school. I stay with some other Poly friends at a rented house near school. Most of them are my classmates and we would almost do everything together. At then, I have five hundred ringgit allowance because of rental. But I didn’t think I was poor at that time. Maybe I was pretty happy with my life then.
Time flies when I was in Poly. Life is so routine, school, basketball, and weekends with my brother.
I did my sem four attachment at my hometown. It’s so great to stay home for that half a year after one and a half year away. Everyone else like my sisters and brothers are not home, but staying home with mum and dad was good.
I started to play volleyball when I was in sem five. From not knowing how to play at all to being the main spiker in just two months. I joined volleyball because of my best friend in Poly. We were classmate, housemate and also basketball teammate. Because that he also play volleyball, he ask me to play too despite not knowing how. And so, we would train every evening for the interpoly coming in two months. My job then was mainly jumping as high as possible and hitting the ball into empty space on the other side. I was a fast ball spiker because of my elevation and time I have in the air. It’s smooth sailing throughout the tournament. We manage to beat all the opponents with straight sets even in the final. According to my friend’s record, I only miss two spikes. One was saved by the opponent and the other I spiked out of court, the rest was converted to points.
I continue to play volleyball in Sem six and manage to get into Selangor team as a substitute player. That was only for one tournament before I graduate and have to return home. Though coach has asked me to train with the team but I couldn’t stay. How I really wish I can…