It's kind of boring and dull lately. Hmmmm... just the feeling.

Had a friendly game with NYP last night. It was ok for the first 2 quarters. But the 2 quarters after that was terrible. It's the combination. I allowed everyone to play any position they want. Is it a wise move? Or should I have controlled the situation from the beginning during warm up. I donno. Maybe I should have done something to make it more a learning game than a relax He Ha game. I feel bad after the game actually. Especially after playing GA in the last quarter. I know I'm having a weak attacking line up but didn't do anything about it. Haiz...

Earlier in the week my school had their netball camp. Can't say that it was good. But, I do see improvements of the players that came. It was rather disappointing actually. Not so much on the girls that came but those that didn't come. They have no sense of urgency. Zonal is just around the corner and they are still like this. I really don't know what to do with them. And this group of people is more than half the team. I don't know how long can I carry on until they suck all my passion away from netball.

Was suppose to have beep test on Monday night but it was canceled last minute. Why??? I have to push my coaching away because of this. Nevermind... So, I went NYP for the girls friendly after a sad day at school for their camp. And more disappointment. I had to umpire and my own teammate was not happy with my umpiring. Do you have to do this to me??? So sad...

Tuesday night at NUS was great! It was suppose to be a training session but I really have no mood to coach. So, we played game after game. It was really fun... At least I can recharge my passion level.

Going KL tomorrow. Am I looking forward to it??? I'm not excited at all. Or is it because I'm numb to feel?