How I wish to be younger. Why? After a few days of rest and still feeling tired and aching tell you why. I’m really getting old. I’m physically struggling to keep up with my lifestyle.

Why don’t I have bigger dreams when I was younger? Why didn’t I start younger? Why aren’t there more opportunities for me? I could have achieved more. I envy people receiving medal.

Hate it when I can’t play well in basketball. ‘Coach’ Can you stop yelling? I’m feeling bad enough already. What do you want me do when what I see is lost faces? I gotta do something when they are not doing anything. I hate the position I play.

Netball training was another disappointment. Only seven of us on Monday and that’s including me. I’m not even the one playing in PestaSukan. It has been like this for the last three trainings. Everyone is just so busy. Guess I’m the one without a life.